Hiya all.I know I wasnt sure if I was going to get to a new post today or not. I was watching my afternoon shows for once and I started crying. I got to thinking about the Holiday tomorrow and realizing the only person I have left on my side of the family besides my real dad is my mother.
I was remembering when I was Kora's age how we all used to go and sit at my grandma's house all day long and wait for the turkey to get done and visit with eachother and all the laughter that came and went in one day and some bickering of course.
The only person that kept all of from a full blown fight was my grandfather. I dont know what it was about that man but he kept us all from fighting. He was just wonderful from what I remember of him. He passed away when I was in first grade on Thanksgiving morning.
Then things sort of went down hill but we all still got together at grandma's house and had a blast. I was starting to get old enough to help in the kitchen and do other things besides do dishes. I got to help mash potatoes that year and that was my job every year after that because I got them done better than my mom. LOL...
Then it went and I got out on my own and Jeff's and I's first Thanksgiving together we had Great Grandma, grandma, mom, Ken, Matt, and Bruce at our house. I know none of these names mean anything to most of you but they do to me. Matt was my grandma's life long boyfriend. She wouldnt marry him. And Bruce is my second counsin. It was wonderful having these people in our one bedroom apt at the time. I mean it sounds funny but look at us now.
Then grandma Joan passed away Feb 6th, 1999. She killed herself we think. She OD on some pills she had in the house. They found a carton of milk next to the couch where they found her and some pills shoved down her throat. That is the persons house we used to go to all the time and spend Thanksgiving and most X-mas's at. She was always in pain because when I was very small she was drunk and got hit and her bone in her ankle was removed and she could walk but she had a hole in her ankle.
Great Grandma Elsie had a stroke in 2001 because she just got really depressed from having to bury her daughter two years before and she just couldnt handle it any longer and I miss G G the most. We were really close. She had her stroke and then she my aunt and mom fought over the power of Attorney for a long time. Then my mom put a restraining order on GG and Marie. Well I wasnt suppose to have contact with either of them because of the restraining order but I did anyway. It would have deserved my mother right to go to jail for that one.
Anyway GG went into a nursing home and fell and hit her head about a week before the last time I saw her and she kept telling me she wanted to go home with me to see my mom and they wouldnt let her go. I would have taken her too. She fell one more time after this and they had to put her in the hospital for it and when they put her back in the nursing home she just gave up. She didnt want to be there and I dont blame her really. She passed away Oct 9th,2003.
Now Marie my aunt was 72 years old or so and even after the restraining order was done over the year that my mom had put on her, she wanted nothing to do with my mom. I dont blame her one bit. She was the feisty one in our family and usually started the fights and ended up leaving half way through meals after Grandpa passed away. She was schitzophrenic and took way to many pills. She ended up with Cancer and they didnt catch it in time to save her. But she passed away sometime in July. I dont even remember the date. That is sad.
Now the only person I have is my mom on my side of the family not including a few cousins but the next of kin. She wont make it another ten years if she doesnt get her diabetes under control. She eats what she wants and when she wants instead of taking control and eating moderately.
I was just thinking about the people in my life that made me happy and I am thankful to have had them in my life even if it was for a very short time. Life is good when you think about the good times.
Again Happy Thanksgiving and enjoy your families my friends. You dont need whole bunches of people to be happy. Loads of love N and family.
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