Saturday

Hi there all. I lost my first post. Its either our computer running really slow or Blogger. I dont know. I have been having Errors on the top of my posts when when the automated saving doesnt save right either for the last few weeks for me....

Well anyway Jeff didnt have to work on Saturday so we mailed out six afghans to Richard Brodsky for the run he is doing this coming month sometime. He is going to present the afghans to one of the people coming in from Kenya Africa for the run. Wish I could be in NY when he presents these blankets to the guy. That is a dream that I cant do this year...Anyway now on to our hike. It was almost 40 degree's F. It was a lovely day even in the shade. All I had on was my jeans and a fuzzy sweat shirt. I cant even get my photo's up right now. I hate this.

Anyway I got this neat photo of a baby beaver. Or at least that is what it looked like. I am not real light on my feet so when I went to get closer to him he ran. I madea crunching noise with the leaves that were drying out and he ran. I didnt think of zooming in when I took the first one or else I wouldnt have tried to move.. Silly me.

Then Saturday night we took the girls out to dinner at a new restaurant here in town. Its called The Red Robin and it has the most suberb burgers for those of you that eat meat.. LOL... I am not making fun of those that dont. Unlimited french fries. Unlimited soda's or coffee's. Its a great place. I havent talked to Laura in the last few days.

Sometime last week Kora and Jonathon got into trouble together for the first time this year. They decide to go around the big block that covers our houses. Well that means crossing two intersections and then making sure no one is coming out of the driveways that connect with these intersections. Well what got me mad was they brought Bri with them and then they thought she was with them and took off and left her all alone trying to get up a hill all by herself.

Well Jonathons mothers friend took off looking for them while I stayed here at the house making sure they didnt come back in between. I was so scared that someone had finally taken off with my babies. Jonathon came down Saturday night to play and i told him that they couldnt play with him until next weekend. Well next weekend we are going to Wisconsin Dells for a chess tournament I have told you all about. Jeff paid for this one in January when we went to the one in Neenah. Well you will have more photo's to look at there also if I can get them to load. Well anyway enough of that. I am off to always do something. Hope you all had a wonderful weekend and look forward to hearing from you all. Tweets...

Shake It Friday

We are getting a New Member of our Family...

Hi all no we are not having another baby if that is what you all are thinking.. LOL.. We are getting a kitten when he is old enough to leave his mommy. He is pure white and just adorable. Laura's kitten gave birth to five kittens and three died on the way out and two survived so I talked Jeff into a kitten. The first few vet vists are going to be expensive but hey that is part of owning a pet but at least we can leave the kitty by himself for a few days when we go some place.

Leave him a fresh bowl of water and food and he is self sufficient. A clean litter box and we are good to go. I am going to take a run down there in a bit and see if she will let me take a photo of him. Laura pulled him out from under her bed and I fell head over heels for him. Esp the way he clung to me for dear life. I am in love. He is only two weeks old so I have to wait a while to bring him home but I can visit with him when I feel like it when she is at home.

The girls are just excited to have a pet now. The only rule I have is that they will not be walking around the house with him like Jonathon does there cats. I think that is stupid really. I dont care really what other people let there kids do with animals. I was brought up that if they want your attention they will come to you and then only can you hold them and pet them. Dont chase them around the house.

I have to say Jonathon gets away with alot with the cats and I dont want him doing that to mine. If the cat doesnt want to be held he wont be in the house chasing him around to catch him. Jeff doesnt want the cat near him. I mean Jeff. Not Jonathon. Jeff isnt a cat person but I want an animal. So we are getting us a kitty. I have named him Snowball since he's pure white.

Well Jeff just left. He was in town today and came home for lunch. To visit with his girls. So off to put the rest of my laundry away. Have a great day my friends.

Point of Origin by Patricia Cornwell

I have been trying to get this review on the spring reading Challenge and havent been able to post it. It keeps saying it saved and posted but not there. I dont know what to do about it. I have contacted Dr. Von Monkey to see if he could come up with a solution but none from him. Oh well. Well anyway on to the review on my blog.

Dr Scarpetta and Benton have just come in from a run and are getting ready shower when the phone rings and Dr. S answers it. You never know when she will be needed as she is a Medical Examiner. She gets told that she is needed at a horse farm to be the ME. Well she gets there and everyone is given there assignments. She is out digging in the rubble and finds a human remains.

Then she is dealing with this human remains and finds out who it is and then she gets another call saying she is needed at another fire and they find anohter human remains. Quite weird if you ask me.. LOL.. Anyway on to the book review. Well it gets personal for Dr. S here. She finds out that her old nemsis has escaped the criminally insane hospital and she thinks she is part of the fires. Or behind them some how.

Well when the third fire is started and such Benton is called in being retired from the FBI but they need him to help. Well he is at the fire scene for a while and then leaves but Dr S tries to call him but he isnt answering his phone. The next thing she knows there is a fourth fire and finds Benton has died in the fire. She wants revenge on who ever does this and she thinks she knows who.

So Dr S and her niece Lucy go in as detectives from there original jobs they have and get behind the scenes and go find the killer. I will leave it here and hope you all can read this one. I got it from Gardenia and I rather enjoyed it.

If I were to give advice I would say its 9 tweets out of ten... LOL...

Our Easter....

Hey all. I got done with my upstairs cleaning and decided to take a short break then on to laundry if I have enough energy.. LOL.. Well Jeff called his mother Friday evening and she said she was kind of in the dumps since no one lives near anymore and asked if we wanted to go out there and visit. She is only two hours away from us. So Jeff came in the kitchen and asked if I wanted to take a run out there on Sunday and I said sure. But then I got thinking with Jeff having to work today I wanted to go out there Saturday. So we called them back and asked if we could go out Saturday instead. Well we ended up buying Easter dinner. That is ok. We got what we like and went from there.

The girls clung to grandma at first and it was nice to see her. Jeff took S to the store for a few things and some yarn for me. Mom gave me some more crocheting books so I have more patterns to try out on you guys here shortly. I want to finish my big project I am working on and then I will go to the yarn Jeff bought me Saturday night. Mom and I had a good chat. She looks at me and told me she realizes we have had our problems but she is proud of me. That is an accomplishment coming from his mother to me. We have had our problems and its not always been pleasant.

But here are some photo's of our trip and then yesterday we went to the Wild Life Sanctuary because we wanted to get some clean fresh air in our lungs from being in his mothers house all day long. They both smoke like Chimney's... LOL..









Now on to our Sunday afternoon. You have seen the girls feed the ducks before but these are our first hikes basically of the year.







Enjoy my trip guys. I didnt post all the photo's I have took but these are the main ones I liked the best. I am waiting for the kitchen to dry so I can down and start laundry at least.

Some good news is I got my tempary liscense on Friday and I go for my actual test on this coming Friday if Jeff can get the time off to do it. I am looking forward to have my liscense. Well I will keep you all posted on that. Its nice to have two liscensed drivers in the house anyway. Also I am thinking about going back to work but not sure yet. Its still up in the air. Jeff says he will support any decision I make and I know he will. Well gotta run for now. Take care and I will be around tomorrow to see you all.

hey ya all....

Hi there. I am going to get a new post up maybe later this afternoon. I am going to go catch up on some cleaning that really needs done before I can sit in front of the computer for a while. I made rounds just now and everyone has been visited even those of you that havent put up a new post in a while.. LOL.. Take care and Happy Belated Easter from Tweety and family..

Aw finally got the photo to load. My brother in law that is in the Air Force in Minot North Dakota. Go Air Force.. LOL... His beautiful wife along with him. I have been trying to add this photo for some time now and I had to resave it and re load it up here. Enjoy.... Sorry I didnt get to rounds today and I wont tomorrow either. Will explain over the weekend if i have time. Its suppose to be nice so we might find ourselves outside most of the weekend. N.

Chapter 5 from Eckhart Tolles

I know its been about two weeks since I posted on this subject here and I am sorry for those of you following me. I have been distracted and I am sorry for it. I have been thinking on some things I have read and doing and catching up with housework.

Chapter 5

The Pain Body.

Did you know that most people's thinking is involuntary? I didnt either until I read this chapter. Its amazing really. Its more of a mental static and fulfills no real purpose. Its like when people say that I think or I circulate my blood. These two things are done automatically. You are always thinking and your blod circulates on its own. You dont have to do these two things with thinking about them first.

Did you also know that our minds are conditioned from our pasts? Yes our lives are conditioned by our pasts and reenact it all the time. This is the Eastern term for Karma. For thousands of years humanity has been increasinly mind possessed. Through this a false sense of self we get our Ego. This degree of identification of mind differs from person to person. Some people get loads of joy, and the peace of joy and liveness they experience in those times worth living.

The Birth of Emotion.

There is another part of Ego as it is called emotion. Its not entirely separate but in another dimension to the ego. Our physical organisms our bodies have its own intellegence as does every other living organism. This is exactly what brought the flower into existence in Chapter One. Did you know that this gives animals an insticitve reaction to us humans as they know when we fear, or angered or pleasured around them.These instintictive responses are called primordial forms of emotion. In ways humans feel these same responses as animals.

Emotions and the Ego.

The eog isnt the only unobserved mind but also the voice in your head which pretends to be you has an unnoticed emotion which we didnt know was there. We have seen what the ego has done to us dysfunctionally. Now lets look here at this in the function of our thought process. This dysfunction is thinking what the body reacts to. The head tells a story that the body reacts to. Of course we know these as emotions. This emotional Ego differs from person to person. Sometimes our head thoughts come so fast that our bodies dont know exactly how to react to this thought process and emotion its trying to distribute. These are called unconcious assumptions.

Everybody is under a great deal of strain and stress this is caused by some external factor within the mind. What is a negative emotion? That question was taken from the book. It is a toxic emotion. Meaning not good for the mind like smoking or doing drugs or drinking acohol... It interferes with our balance and harmoninous functioning. Fear, anxiety, anger, jealousy, bearing a gudge, sadness hatred, or intense dislike all disrupt the enery flow of through the body. An emotion does harm to the body. There is a generic form of this ego its called: UNHAPPINESS.

A Duck with a Human Mind

A story from the book. It makes sense really. Its like we fight with our loved ones right. Lets say we have two ducks swimming down the stream and they end up fighting over somethign stupd like the male duck being to close to the female duck. Well she gets upset and starts flapping her wings and goes off on her own. Well on goes with the male in his own manner and then he flaps his wings to get rid of the fustration and then finds the female a little later on. It says if the duck were a human it would keep the fight going with by story making. Something like I cant believe he just did that and he thinks he owns this pond. That male duck has no consideration for my space. I will teach him and so what. We are a species that has lost its way. This story here of the ducks is to mean let go of the story.

I am going to skip this part here that is Carrying the Past. There isnt that much info here and I dont think its that important to this right now. Read the book if your interested in this part I skipped.

Individual and Collective

Any of this negative emotion when not fully faced is left behin with a remnant of pain. Children in particular find this esp after watching there parents fight for years on end. I have to say this hit me real hard yesterday while reading this section because what are Jeff and I doing to our girls ego's when we do have a blow out fight. Its never been physical but all the yelling and name calling. On and on about this. We are suppose to guide our children but sometimes our emotions get in the way. The pain body takes in to factor of these also. We live them every day while learning about school and such: tribal warfare, enslavement, pillage, rape, torture, and other forms of violence. The pain still lives in collective psyche of humanity is there on a daily basis.

This here is like babies come into this world with a pain body but some cry more than others. I know Kora cried all the time. Was she just that unhappy as an infant or was she feeding off of Jeff and I being nervous with a new born baby? Its hard to tell at that stage in life. Then you have great babies that dont cry that much like Brianna didnt for us. She was our angel compared to Kora and still is. I mean by that is Kora still cries for no reason but Bri she makes fun of Kora when she cries. Some children take in this negative emotion and carry it with them for long periods of time.

There was an example here some where about a mother and child and I cant find it now but I remember reading it yesterday. It might have been in The Four Agreements also. I was reading both of them yesterday. But anyway a mother comes home from work and is tired and just wants a few minutes to collect her thoughts and the child is singing and dancing happy to have her mom home and her mother gets upset and tells the child to shut up. Well of course the child shuts up and never sings or dances again because she thinks its wrong. She is asked to sing in school and she shies away from it because she doesnt think she has a good voice.

I am also going to skip How The Pain Body Renews Itself. Not much info here for me to get the idea out.

How The Pain Body Feeds on Your Thoughts..

Our pain-body awakens when it gets hungry. It can be triggered at any time. Some one says something or you see something that might trigger how you are feeling on this. Suddenly you find yourself arguing with a loved one. You can get this fueled and then it will stop but then you will tell your loved one oh it wont happen again but you cant promise that exactly because you never know when its going to need to be fueled again. A newly wedded couple goes for a few weeks and then end up having a huge fight and the groom wonders if he made a mistake. No he didnt. Her ego just needed fulfilling with a negative response. Or to hurt somebody. I know I had loads of revelations with this section of the book yesterday and I really should have done this yesterday. Even if to post it today.

How The Pain Body Feeds on Drama

Your pain body pushes or tries to punish your partner or a close family member so it can ensue drama. Pain bodies love intimate relationships. Because this is where they get all or most of there food. Many relationships go through destructive pain body episodes. Most pain bodies want to inflict as much pain as possible. They feed on violence. If you live with cats and you realize that they seem to be asleep and some one makes a noise and there eyes open slightly.

I am going to leave this where its at. Enjoy and again I hope I hit all the good points of Chapter Five here. I suggest you read the book. Its really good really. Take it slow and think about it as you go.

Random thoughts....

You know my friends I have been reading Eckhart Tolles book and now I also have The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. He is amazing at making you realize things in life you normally dont think about. I have been meaning to do a chapter review on Chapter 5 in Eckharts book. I just keep getting distracted. I will do one later this afternoon and get it published tomorrow. I have nothing to do but finish laundry today.

I have to outside and clean out the dryer thing outside because I noticed last night that my clothes werent dry. We still have a little bit of snow out back so I have to trudge through the damned stuff and clean out the dryer hole.. Yuckie. I mean I dont mind snow but come on here.

Oh some news on Laura. She is separated from her husband. She caught him cheating on her while she went to see her dad in Tennessee. As soon as she left he locked himself in there bedroom and was on the computer 90% of the time with another woman and such. Then she kicked him out the Friday we went to Milwaukee last and the same guy with the screen name she told me about yesterday was talking to me. Well I figured out who it was and I am not a happy camper with him.

I have had my troubles with guys and wont go into here again. I think I mentioned what has happened in the past and I dont want to think about it again. Well anyway Norm used to come down and talk to me while the kids were outside playing and such and then he would go home and come back an hour or so later. Never thought twice about it. But still. I should have been more careful on what I was wearing. I have this thing with wearing my swim suit and shorts during the summer months esp now having the pool.

I am rambling and I am sorry but just thinking on a few things and thoughts coming at random. I get to meet Ken's son in July. They are coming this way the 3rd week of July from Flint MI. Her family lives there and they are going for a family reunion and then comeing to GB WI the 3rd week of July. Staying one night and then leaving. They both have to get back to work but he wants to see his dad and meet my mom and me and my family.

I feel loads better but wish this cough and phlem would go away now. But anyway life is good here from here on out.. I have to admit I am looking forward to making Jeff's cake. I have some help from Laura and her room mate that loves baking. I told them what I have planned and they want to help me make it.

Well I suppose. I will get going and catch up with you all later. I have made rounds for those of you that have new posts up and such. Talk later. N.

Thanks to Cynnie..

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"The Irish Doc"

A doctor in Ireland wanted to get off work and
go hunting, so he approached his assistant.
"Seamus, I am goin huntin tomorrow and don't
want to close the clinic. I want you to take care
of the clinic and take care of all me patients."

"Yes, sir!" answers Seamus.

The doctor goes hunting and returns the following
day and asks: "So, Seamus, how was your day?"

Seamus told him that he took care of three patients.
"The first one had a headache so I gave him
TYLENOL."

"Bravo, and the second one?" asks the doctor.

"The second one had stomach burning and I
gave him MALOX, sir," says Seamus.

"Bravo, bravo! You're good at this and what
about the third one?" asks the doctor.

"Sir, I was sitting here and suddenly the door
opens and a woman enters. Like a flame, she
undresses herself, taking off everything
including her bra and her panties and lies down
on the table. She spreads her legs and shouts:

"HELP ME! For five years I have not seen any man!"

"Thunderin' Lard Jayzus, Seamus, what did ye do?"
asks the doctor.

"I put drops in her eyes!"

Funnies.

HOLY PROSTITUTION
> A MAN IS DRIVING DOWN A DESERTED STRETCH OF HIGHWAY WHEN
> HE NOTICES A SIGN OUT OF THE CORNER OF HIS EYE....IT READS:
>
> SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
> 10 MILES
>
> HE THINKS THIS IS A FIGMENT OF HIS IMAGINATION
> AND DRIVES ON WITHOUT SECOND THOUGHT.
> SOON HE SEES ANOTHER SIGN WHICH READS:
>
> SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
> 5 MILES
>
> SUDDENLY HE BEGINS TO REALIZE THAT THESE SIGNS
> ARE FOR REAL AND DRIVES PAST A THIRD SIGN SAYING:
>
> SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
> NEXT RIGHT
>
> HIS CURIOSITY GETS THE BEST OF HIM, AND HE PULLS
> INTO THE DRIVE. ON THE FAR SIDE OF THE PARKING LOT
> IS A STONE BUILDING WITH A SMALL SIGN
> NEXT TO THE DOOR READING :
>
> SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
>
> HE CLIMBS THE STEPS AND RINGS THE BELL .
> THE DOOR IS ANSWERED BY A NUN IN A LONG BLACK
> HABIT WHO ASKS, 'WHAT MAY WE DO FOR YOU MY SON?'
>
> HE ANSWERS, 'I SAW YOUR SIGNS ALONG THE HIGHWAY
> AND WAS INTERESTED IN POSSIBLY DOING BUSINESS.'
>
> 'VERY WELL, MY SON. PLEASE FOLLOW ME.
> ' HE IS LED THROUGH MANY WINDING PASSAGES
> AND IS SOON QUITE DISORIENTED. THE NUN STOPS AT A CLOSED
> DOOR AND TELLS THE MAN,
> 'PLEASE KNOCK ON THIS DOOR.'
>
> HE DOES SO AND ANOTHER NUN IN A LONG HABIT,
> HOLDING A TIN CUP ANSWERS THE DOOR.
> THIS NUN INSTRUCTS, 'PLEASE PLACE $100 IN THE CUP
> THEN GO THROUGH THE LARGE WOODEN
> DOOR AT THE END OF THE HALLWAY.'
>
> HE PUTS $100 IN THE CUP, EAGERLY TROTS DOWN
> THE HALL, AND SLIPS THROUGH THE DOOR
> PULLING IT SHUT BEHIND HIM.
>
> THE DOOR LOCKS, AND HE FINDS HIMSELF BACK
> IN THE PARKING LOT FACING ANOTHER SIGN:
>
> GO IN PEACE.
> YOU HAVE JUST BEEN SCREWED BY THE SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS.
> SERVES YOU RIGHT, YOU SINNER.
>

A Suprise for my Friends...

Hi all. I know I usually dont post on Saturdays. But I just had to brag to you all. Jeff andI bought a brand new 2007 Chrysler and brought it home yesterday. It rides so nice. Its silver like the other one and it has a CD player inside and electric locks on the key chain and its just awsome. We traded in the other car for it and put a nice down payment on it.

I dont have any photo's yet of it to share with you but I will when I take them tomorrow or when I get to it. Its a four door but looks kind of sporty. I like it but havent gotten to drive it yet. I am looking at getting my temps this week sometime. Not sure when.

Also looking at making Jeff a cake for his b-day. I am looking at making him a chess board cake. Its going to be Chocolate Marble I think and then white and green frosting on the top for the board and havent decided what for the pieces yet. Will plan that out as time comes around. His B-day is April 13th so I still have time. Us girls are going to walk and get Easter Candy this coming week so I have time to look around while he's at work and maybe pick up some of my frosting I will need for the cake. LOL... He is going to love it. At least I hope he will.

We went to the local Zoo today but I forgot my camera. The animals were so cool. The girls actually got to feed the Giraffes we have here. That was a pretty neat site to see. I wish I would have brought my camera for those moments. I know they wont be able to do that again for a long time. It was pretty cool to see the Giraffes. The one kept trying to take hay out of the others mouth instead of getting his own hay. LOL. Really cute.

The otters were playful today. The wolves were out and running around and delightful to see than when they are just laying around doing nothing. The Red Panda was sleeping but just adorable all the same. I love panda bears. They look so cuddly.

The girls had there photo taken with the Easter Bunny today. I was told we could pick up there photo tomorrow but not sure if we will get back out to Wal Mart to get it. I guess we will see what happens tomorrow. Also the girls got to feed the goats and the reindeer at the Zoo today. It wasnt that busy thankfully. I love going when its not that busy. I like being able to look around and go as slow as i want and see the animals. But I suppose. That was it for today. Talk to you all soon. I dont know if I will make rounds today or not. But if not Monday.

Shake It Friday.....

I got this idea from Here today Gone tomorrow. I have been thinking about it for a while now. Here is one of my favorites.

Madonna Papa Dont Preach...

Thoughts..

Hi all. UPdate on how I am feeling. Stuffy again but not as logged down as I have been this last weekend. Thankfully.I got most of my cleaning done yesterday. The girls are recuperating from the trip. Its beautiful outside right now. Its a great 32 degrees F. Yayyyy. Spring is almost here finally.

I am so looking forward to putting up our pool again this year and enjoying myslef. I have to admit I want to move the pool to a sunnier spot this year. Jeff argues that we will have to many pool spots in the yard but I dont think so. Just two. Esp if we can find a better spot for the pool this summer.

I got some pix for my dad made last week and sent them out. The girls got coloring books from my younger brother and his wife. They are still sad about Maxwell but it will take a while to get over such a death like that. I cant even imagine going all the way like that then losing my baby. Its been four months already. I cant believe he would have been four month already.

You know I was in the pool this last weekend playing around in the pool with the girls and I started to cry. I had this feeling of being watched but no one was there. I had this feeling that my great grandmother was there watching me play with the girls. I have said this before but when I was Kora's age she used to take me swimming every day during the summer and would buy a small treat afterwards. I never learned how to swim but I liked playing around in the water. GG was the best. I miss her terribly.

But I was actually doing the breast stroke and I had this feeling of being watched and no one was there and I looked up and I had this feeling that some one was smiling at me and happy with me. Just weird feelings while we were at this tournament. Jeff did well as I already told you.

I got a strange phone call this morning. A friend of ours that left when Bri was just a baby called today. He got married 21/2 months after we did. He is older than we are but he finally found the right person to marry. He wants to come to a Chess Tournament in July but not sure if they can afford the plane ride. I dont blame him. He wants us to meet his wife. I dont mind meeting his wife really.

I am reading a good book I got from Gardenia. Its called Power of Three by Laura Lipman. Will have a review on it when I am done but its good so far. Thanks Gardenia for the good read. I am about half way done with my blue and white ripple blanket. Its going to be a Queen size I think. Its huge.. LOL..

Jeff and I are doing great on our running each night.I am still up to ten minutes. I told him I would up my minutes when I dont feel like I am getting winded esp with my cold.

Well I suppose. I need to go do something before I fall asleep right here. Hope you all have a good day. Oh by the way before I forgot again its my dads b-day. Ken turned 64 today. My mom will be 52 in April.. Where has time went with both of them. I know neither of them are getting any younger and neither am I. I will be there age before I know it. LOL.. So I am enjoying being 31 for the time being..

Hoax By Robert K Tanebaum.

Intersting book. But lets start now.

Aljandro Garcia is a young boy who was left as an orphan with his grandmother at a young age. His father took off and his mother died of drug over dose. Well as he got older he joined a gang like most Latino children do in books I should say. Or at least this one I really should specify. Anyway he ended up shooting another gang memeber in the butt and went to a dentention center for it and while he was there his grandmother his only living relative was mugged and killed. Then he gets out and makes his life ok and then tries to go for singing and rap music.

This other Dude named ML Rex was called from LA. He was told this young kid wanted a go at rap and he was to out do him. Well some how this Garcia didnt out do the real rapper and Garcia had two young friends with him. But this ML Rex went after Garcia after the show down and there were death threats. But ML Rex was going to cut out on a Record deal he had with his guy. Lots of information on this but I dont want to give the whole book away.

Then the District Attorney's office realizes that his twin sons were with Garcia the night that Garcia had made these death threats. Well when this goes down ML Rex and his buddy and two girls end up dead. The guy driving the Limo ends up dead a few days later. Wont say why or how. He just does.

Then there are young children being raped and killed and its not just in NY. Its also out on a Pueblo reservation. The Chief of the police of out there is investigating that and also all of a sudden he meets up with the DA's wife and daughter out there clearing there heads. Well things fall into place and they connect them to whats going on in NY.

They go back to NY and tell the DA about all this and then they realize they have a bad cop and some bad people working under them. The DA's life was put in jeopardy more than once. But then they got the bad guys and that is where the book ends. I wont tell you what happens exactly. I think its a great read. I were to have a scale of 1-10. I think its 8.5 tweets out of ten. Thanks SME for the book.

More photos of MY Babies..

Hi there all. I know I know. More photo's.. LOL.. Well here is some good news. Jeff got 3 points out of five at the tournament. He won those three games and lost two. That is ok for the competition that was there. He wishes he would have beat a higher rated player though for one of his wins which he did not. But he things happen right? But there is always next month when we go to WI Dells. He already paid for that one that is why we are going and then thats it for a while. I am really sick of traveling to be honest with you. I love going places but I hate sitting around waiting on Sundays because we have to check out of the motel room after he has to be back at the tournament site except for next month we will be at the site with a pool and the girls can swim until he is ready to leave. That is nice really. Anyway here are some of my favorite photo's of the girls. Enjoy.












Kora looking like a baby because she decided to suck her thumb while hiding under the blankets.. LOL.. No I just thought she looked cute with her thumb in her mouth at the age of 7. Yikes... I know I sucked my thumb but that is another story really.



Bri sitting up sleeping.


A blonde walks into a bank in New York City and asks for the loan
Officer. She says she's going to Europe on business for two weeks and
needs to borrow $5,000. The bank officer says the bank will need some
kind of security for the loan, so the blonde hands over the keys to a
new Mercedes Benz SL 500.

The car is parked on the street in front of the bank. She has the
title and everything checks out. The bank agrees to accept the car as
collateral for the loan. The bank's president and its officers all enjoy
a good laugh at the blonde for using a $110,000 Benz as collateral
against a $5,000 Loan. An employee of the bank then proceeds to drive
the Benz into the bank's underground garage and parks it there.

Two weeks later, the blonde returns. She repays the $5,000 and the
interest, which comes to $15.41.

The loan officer says, "Miss, we are very happy to have had your
business, and this transaction has worked out very nicely, but we are a
little puzzled. While you were away, we checked you out and found that
you are a multimillionaire. What puzzles us is, why would you bother to
borrow $5,000?" The blonde replies, "Where else in New York City can I
park my car for two weeks for only $15.41 and expect it to be there when
I return?"

Finally, a smart blonde joke!

Sick....

Hi there. Why is it that when the girls get sick and then I get what they have I get it worse than even Jeff? The girls had colds over this last week between the two of them. It didnt last long for them but I woke up with a sore throat and kind of stuffy yesterday. Today I still have my sore throat and my stuffy head. Now on top of that I have the dry heaves. You know that makes me almost not want to eat.

We are suppose to be leaving tonight but its hard to travel when not feeling well. I know I kept saying I really didnt want to go but still. I didnt want to get sick either. My head feels like its going to explode right now and I still have to finish packing the suitcase. There are a few things I didnt get in there last night because I figured I could do them today. We still need toothbrushes, toothpaste, pit stick, and a few other things.

I will bring the cold medicine and hope that helps really. But I hate being sick when we travel. Its suppose to be a time to relax and not worry about anything but I worry more when I am sick than I do anyother time in my life. I will try and have fun anyway though. We are a mile and half from a small mall where we dont have to stay at the motel all the time. Its walkable. I know most of you think your girls walk that far. Yes they do actually even further. They both have walked further than that on the trails I have posted this fall. We walked about 4 miles or so then.

Oh an update on our eliptical running. We both have gotten up to ten minutes. I just in the last couple of days. I am so proud of myself. I also think I have lost a little of my ass. Yayyyy...LOL... Well I suppose. I am going to go feed the girls and then feed myself and then finish packing. I will catch you all later this afternoon.

Press

Boy is the Press stupid in so many ways. I understand they are trying to get a good story and of course of one of the best Quarterbacks there is out there. But why did they have to pick on Poor Deanna Favre??

I just dont get it. I mean he told the Press that he promised her that she didnt have to speak but they basically just sat there until she sat down next to Brett. I think it was completely stupid really.

I have to admit I had tears in my eyes with him. I dont know when the Packers are going this year or from here on out but I have Faith in Rodgers. Cant remember his first name but I have seen him play in games when Brett couldnt. Its rough watching some one like Favre leave a good game like this.

Farewell to one of the best Quarterbacks there is. But you all know he will be watching from where he is. I have a feeling he will keep up with the Packers. Maybe not anyone else but the Packers at least.

I was hoping to get some of his Live conference here on You Tube but I dont think I would be able to really. Not that many of you are interested in our WI Quarter backs retirement. Its a sad thing really.

He was saying that he is mentally done but physically he could have went on.

Anyway on a lighter note we are leaving tomorrow when Jeff gets off work and I will be gone over the weekend. No computer where we are staying so I will have to talk to you all on Monday after rounds tomorrow. I will have new photo's of the girls and what Jeff did at the tournament.

This coming up tournament is going to have some International Masters. I know some or most of you have no idea what I am talking about. LOL.. They have ratings of about 2300 or 2400. Its a Fide tournament. Its pronounced FEEDAY.. LOL.. Sorry dont mean to bore you with this part.

Well I suppose.I will make rounds tomorrow but not sure if I will put up a new post tomorrow so this may be it till Monday. Have a good weekend if I dont get to a new post tomorrow.

Recipe MEME

1. You have three days to post an old time recipe that nobody in their health-conscious mind would eat much of these days. The chief perk of being a peasant, working like a beast, and not living long enough die of heart disease anyway, was that you could eat anything you wanted.

2. I am doing Cucumber Salad.I had to cheat a bit because I dont have an old recipe that no one would eat. But the rule is you cannot use this recipe too. You have to have one of your own.

3. You must then tag two others.

3 large cucumbers, peeled, thinly sliced
1 cup white vinegar
3/4 cup water
3/4 cup sugar
1 teaspoon salt
dash ground cayenne pepper
dash dried parsley flakes
1/8 teaspoon black pepper
dash dried leaf basil
PREPARATION:
Combine all ingredients except cucumbers; heat until sugar melts. Pour warm mixture over cucumbers. Store covered in refrigerator.

I am going to do something here. Anyone one that wants to do this one go for it and let me know ok. The one I wanted I couldnt find with Mayo. Its very similar to this one with Mayo. But of course I couldnt find it. I will ask my God mother for it again. She sent it to me in an e-mail a while back. We had a tag going with e-mails something similiar to this. But anyway enjoy.

A little About ME!!!!!!

Hi there. All I am sorry for posting that thing and then e-mailing it out too. I wasnt thinking yesterday when I posted it. Many of you responded and I am happy. Most of you got things right about me but some didnt but hey its ok. We only know each other over the internet right? And anyway most of you dont know if I have siblings or not but I do really. I wish I had pix of them all for you but again I dont.

Starting with my Real dad I have 3 half sisters and 2 half brothers. I am the oldest there. Then it comes Dennis, Helen, Nathan, and Andrea but I dont know the last ones name to be honest. My dad would never tell me. I know Dennis, Helen, and Nate. I actual have a good relationship with Maria, Nate's wife. My dad was a wild man in his prime time. I dont hold it against him because its who he is. He drank and smoke and played around. He has paid plenty over the years for his mistakes.

Now on to Ken he has two older children than me that I posted about a while back over the Holidays. Right after the New Year I think I mentioned they had contacted him.Or I should say his son did. Kendal is older and so is Kim. So I have an older Step brother and Older Step sister. Ken would never have met my mother if he wouldnt have been a wild thing when he was younger like my real dad. I sometimes catch myself thinking what things would be like if they hadnt met and my mom had raised me on her own.

I was a wild teenager to be honest with you. I was always doing things I shouldnt be doing and such. I have settled down some now as an adult but when I was about 15 my mom couldnt control me. I would sneak out of the house or Apt I should say and do what I wanted until one time mom found out I wasnt in bed and stayed up till i got home. She was about to call the police. Even on thos wild sides I never drank or did drugs. I just went out joy riding with friends. We just had fun.

Then when I was about 16 my boyfriend was living with his brother and sister in law and they were about to have a baby and they were getting ready to throw him out because they needed the room for the baby. So I talked my mom into letting him move in. I have to admit I learned alot about being grown up and I wish I hadnt learned so quickly really. I have to admit he was on the slower side so he didnt have all the home work I had and he was always out running the streets while I was at home banging my way through homework. He had special ED classes.

The only bad habit I picked up for about two years until I met Jeff was smoking. Three months before my eighteenth b-day I started smoking. Not real heavily but still smoking. And then I met Jeff and wanted nothing to do with a chimney so he told me either him or the Cigs and I chose him. It took awhile to quit but I did have never went back. At first I thought about it when we had problems but never actually took the walk to the Gas Station. It just bothers me now really. But I do have friends and family that smoke and it doesnt bother me to sit next them while they are doing it. But I do have to admit the smoke has always bothered my eyes for some dang reason.

You all guess what kind of music I like. I do like soft rock, oldies, country. So many of you guessed right. I dont like the real hard core rock. I get a head ache listening to it. My two favorite Country songs are 18 Wheeler by Alabama, and Two Sparrow in a Hurricane by Tanya Tucker. I could go on and on about other music we listen to here that are my favorites. But I wont bore you with that. Well anyway I have to go do some more laundry I never finished yesterday and I will catch up with you all later Ok. Its just laundry and some dishes before we leave again this weekend.

I have to admit I am not really looking forward to another weekend away. It feels like we just had a vacation but that is what being the supporter of his is. I go where and when he feels like going or else he feels I am not supporting him but these tournaments will slow down here after the next month. There just arent enough of them here in WI to go to all the time.

So that is a bit about me for those that didnt know anything or just wanted an update on my status.. LOL.. Have a good day my friends.

A Quick Question...

Is it spring yet????????



Also how well do you know me????


Where did we meet:______________________________________

Take a stab at my middle name:_______________________________

Do I smoke:_____________________________________________

Color of my eyes:_________________________________________

Do I have any siblings:_____________________________________

What's one of my favorite things to do:_________________________

What's my favorite type of music: _______________________________

Am I shy or 0utgoing:________________________________________

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:_____________________________

Any special talents:_________________________________________

How many children do I have:_____________________________

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is one thing that I would bring: _________________________________________

Circus...

Candy anyone Candy. Toys.. LOL.. I loved going but that was the most annoying part of it really. LOL.. All the men and women walking around with toys that they wanted 15 dollars for that wouldnt last but the night or shortly after.

We got there and found seats and waited about 15 minutes for the show to start but they had elephant rides, and shetlen pony rides. We were going to let the girls ride but couldnt find where to get the tickets to ride either was. So they missed out this year. Maybe next year.

It was amazing really. It started out with this lady here talking to us and then our own news caster of our local channel came out riding on an elephant. Well let me start here. I have 70 photo's and I wont post them all ok. That is quite a few photo's. Sit back and enjoy..





The National Athem. Neat. Wish they would have let off there guns at the end. That would have made it even more interesting. I missed the guys that were stacking four high. I couldnt get a clear pix of them here. I couldnt figure out which pix were which until I posted them just now. Enjoy.




Now the tigers. Hopefully you can see them. They are so agile as Jeff says.





I missed this one because Bri had to go potty and Jeff took the photo for me. So I am not sure what this one was exactly.



Oh these were awsome. They put some motor bikes in this cage and they were just cool to see. they were riding on there sides and then upside down and it was just neat. well here you go anyway



This was cool too. Four men were randomly picked from the crowd and the Clown made them sit on these stool and then lean into eachother and finally lay on eachothers laps and then he took the stools from out under the men and they stayed like they were sitting and laying on eachother. I have no idea how he did it.



Elephants. These were neat also. Well the whole show was really. But I missed the one where they sat down on the stools with these girls on there backs. I was impressed that they are so big that they actually do all of these tricks they are doing.





Ok. I cant find my photo of the human canon ball. Sorry folks. That was the grand finalle. LOL.. Jeff cant stand the loud noise the canon makes when it pops. I love watching it though. Its amazing to see all these people fly through the air. I mean I wish I could have gotten them to come in more clearly for you. I hope you can see the photo's ok. I want you to walk in our shoes here on our outing. I mean they had these girls in these glow in the dark bikini's and they were swirling around in the air by one leg on the rope. They had there foot attached to the rope some how and they were being swirled by men down below them. I was waiting for some one to get to close to the next person and smack eachother. LOL.. I dont think I had a favorite time of the Circus. It was great this year. Well that is it folks. Talk to you later.

Funny Video's

Got these from Jeff's sister in law but had to look them up to post them here. They are quite the laugh. Not very long. the first one is only like 2:20 or somthing like that and the second one is like 1:30 or so. so not to long. Just a couple of funnies to bring a laugh to your day. Enjoy.







Gotta See this one. Only a few seconds long

Chapter 4

Hi there. Candy thought Chapter three was the most important. This time I have to disagree. I think four comes in next but i might change my mind after doing the review here. So here we go.



Role Playing: The Many Faces of the Ego

Egos want things and they have to make the person role play to get those things and go places. Many people are unconcious of the roles they are playing. It just seems like a normal daily life to them. The ego doesnt know the source of energy so it seeks it outside. Lets take a shy person they are not free of there ego. They hide behind it as most of us would call it. The fear makes them want the attention but not good atttention like most people want. Most people want to be told what good things they are doing but a shy person takes in the negative stuff. Being told they arent doing enough or well enough. Its like being inferierior or superior to someone. A shy persons ego is inferior to or feels that way compared to some one out going that would think they are superior to the shy person. Do any of you know someone like that?? I think we all do really.

Villian, Victim, Lover

This here states that sometimes we have our egos and they seek more negative companionship that positive. Sometimes a person looks for abusive traits in a person other than the loving and wonderful kinds you can get from other people. A very common role with the egos is the Victim though. They seek sympathy, or pity and they usually get it too. When they put themselves in the role they usually dont want to leave that roll playing there. They just keep on with it. It gets tiresome really. You take romantic relationships and you role play to get the opposite sex interested and then you dwindle really. You almost make the person think you are someone else and then you live together and you change. I know that happened here with me. I am a good person but I started using nail polish and make up and such and then after a few years I slowed down because that wasnt me. I still do it but not as often as I did when we first started out on this journey together.

Here falling in love isnt what we see or do really. Its more of our ego wanting and needing than us really falling in love.

Letting Go of Self-Definitions

This here says that you are looking at specifying someone. Like a farmer, Priest, Priestess, warrior, merchant, crafter, and so forth. You have a class for each of them and hope that some one fits into each category. You have social classes and hope everyone fits into each class also. I mean most people hang out with only people in there class. I mean I grew up sort of poor so I hung out with people that were sort of poor. I mean sure I had friends that there parents had money but not many. I hung with kids that werent going to treat me any differently than they treat others. If that makes sense. This here is called conditioning your where abouts. Here some people actually say they dont know who they are anymore. Well sometimes I have caught myself asking who I was and asking where I am to go next. Its rough not knowing if you should go back to school or work and know if you are going to do well enough to do either.

Pre-established Roles

People here are into different roles. I mean for one you have your doctors, lawyers, and so forth. Each has there own talent and skills and so on. I mean you have a dr he is good at healing some one. Then a lawyer is good at helping some one winning money from a car accident. These are less rigid than the ones in the Ancient Cultures but still they are there. You look at us now compared to 30 years ago. I mean how many stay at home moms do you see? Not many really. People are wanting more and more stuff in life and there ego's take over on them. They dont understand this drive exactly but its there.

Temporary Roles.

If you are awake enough to know how you interact with other people. I mean you may talk to your husband in a different way than you talk to your children. Or your barber differently than your sister. Why is this? You are playing roles that you have learned over the years. It says here that you are not yourself at this point. It says you have a mental image of who the other person is but also who you are.

Paerent Hood: Role or Function?

Many adults play the role of parents. Well we have children and then think we are superior to them. I mean sure we know more than they do but we dont treat them like equals. You ask why we should treat our young children like equals? Well for one thing they have to learn some how to do that to there own children some day. But anyway You may be protective or unbiased on what your child does but you still have to be the parent to guide them. Well you need them to learn mistakes and such. You can spoil your child and see what kind of adult he or she becomes. Then they have no responsibility. None whats so ever. They run to mommy and daddy when they need help out of bad situations. But if you guide them and such and let them see there mistakes they are more likely to figure things out on there own. Here is a good example Jeff might like is potty training. We are big on seeing kids in diapers until they are 4 years of age. That just grosses me out totally. I am so glad our girls wanted out early. But anyway what is our world going to be in 30 years knowing most of these kids that couldnt take the challenge of being toilet trained early and having to take challenges as adults. You ask how this is relevent. Yss it is. Its the step between babyhood and becoming a big kid and then learning the mistakes of going to the bathroom in your shorts compared to diapers. I could go on and on here about parenting. I am not perfect but you love your child and help them. I mean some people and I know people like this have there kids and then dont pay any attention to them. Thats not good either. I mean kids need contact with there parents. They need to be hugged or have a game played with them or read to. Its not just go play and never give them any attention.

Conscious Parenting

Many children harbor resentments and anger towards there parents because they werent guided or had a difficult time with there parents when they were young. It asks how you bring Being into your buys life style. Well for one thing we are busy here in our household but we always find an hour or so to spend with the girls. We always do somethign with them. If that means reading, or talking or something. I mean sure we have alot of hurry ups or eat your dinners here but we also have time to cuddle and such. they need that. Recognizing your child as an adult and human being. What does this mean? You look at your child and realize that they are another human. They talk, they walk they do other things I do.

Pathological Ego.

In a wider sense of Ego it is said to be a pathological no matter what form it takes. When you look up the Greek root of pathological you will see how fitting Ego is to it. A person sufferering does not look upon it as sufferering but will look at it as appropriate response to the situation. Your ego doesnt know the difference between what you say and what is going on outside. You may say its a awful day and it could be sunny out and just beautiful and your ego has no clue that its sunny. Or that is its raining and thundering. You get the point here. Aw we get to the good stuff again.. LOL.. The ego strenghthens with your anger and resentment of the rightness of the situation. That sounds like me when we fight. LOL.. When you are in a negative state there is something that wants that negative feeling and its pleasurable about it. In the midst of negativity you realize or rise above you realize you causing the suffering and it will be renough to raise you above the limitations of the conditioned egoic state.

The Background in Unhappiness

The ego creates separation and separation creates suffering. Separating us from them or setting us apart from the normal or obivous one such as anger, hatred, and so on there are other common forms of negativity. They are such as fed up, irritation, nervousness. Aw here is a good question. Do you often experience a feeling of discontent that could best be described as a kind of background resentment? It may be either specific or nonspecific. Many people live there lives in this state of there ego's. They cant put a finger on how they feel or why.

The Secret of Happiness

How to be at peace? By making peace with the current moment. There are three words that convey the peace within you of happiness: One with life, Being one with life is being one with Now. Here you realize that you dont live life but life lives you. Ego's love resentment of reality. What is Reality you ask? Well its whatever is. Buddha called it tatata the suchness of life, which is no more than suchness. To end misery you have to start with yourself and the human condition. Take responsibilty of your actions and inner state. Ask yourself is there any Negativity in me at this moment? Then become alert attentive to your thoughts and emotions. One day you say you will be free of this ego but who is really talking here? The ego of course. All you have to do is beaware of your emotions and thoughts as they happen.

Pathological Forms of Ego.

Many mental disorders consist of the same egoic traits taht operate in a normal person. This something I never knew. The mental illness that is called paranoid schizophrenia or paranoia for short is essentially an exaggerated form of the ego. My aunt was schitzophrenic. Jeff's mother is slightly. They believe people are out to get them so they usually dont go to far from home. This also makes the suffer to more extreme like being spied on or threatened by others. This one here also makes sense. The collective ego of tribes, religions, nations also frequently contains strong elements of paranoia. Us against other evil doers..

Alright I am leaving this as this is here. I hope to you all I hit some good points. Enjoy.